The next two weeks

Dear Dazzy,

Yes it's getting to the point where that countdown will begin-less than two weeks, then less than one, then-the day will arrive. On the 20th, it will be a year that you will have been gone.

Then the day after...starts year two!

When I think of you now, I sometimes smile through my tears.

You were my protector, among other things, and when I heard this song todayI thought of you right away:

The Escape Club - I'll Be There Lyrics

Over Mountains over Trees

over Oceans over Seas

across the desert

I'll be there

in a whisper

on the wind

on the smile of a new friend

just think of me

And I'll be there

Don't be afraid, oh my love

I'll be watching you from above

And I'd give all the world tonight,

to be with you

Because I'm on your side,

And I still care

I may have died,

but I've gone nowhere

Just think of me,

And I'll be there

On the edge of a waking dream

over Rivers over Streams

through Wind and Rain

I'll be there

Across the wide and open sky

thousands of miles I'd fly

to be with you

I'll be there

Don't be afraid, oh my love

I'll be watching you from above

And I'd give all the world tonight,

to be with you

Because I'm on your side,

And I still care

I may have died,

but I've gone nowhere

Just think of me,

And I'll be there

In the breath of a wind that sighs

oh, there's no need to cry

Just think of me,

And I'll be there

I know you would say this to me in person of you could-all those months ago, when I had that oh-so-vivid dream, and in it you wrote, "I'd give up all my sunsets, to be with you again..."

well, that's what this reminded me of...

I am having more good days than bad right now.

I am coming to that tipping point where lots of decisions will have to be made-where do I want to live, work, start my "new" life, the one I never really wanted-not without you, babe-and do I want to keep doing what I am doing? Hmmm, choices.

But you know all this stuff already.

And you know how I still miss you.

I will look to you and your memory for encouragement all the rest of the days of my life, sweets.

Love you, Dazzy. Always.

Kisses, Wifey.